Ok, Ok..so I haven't been good about blogging once I started back in August. From the last time I wrote I've struggled with a couple different issues in writing again. The first one is that I worry aobut how much information to write and I'm a little afraid that I'll say too much. The other reason is that: Everyone I know that blogs do little updates on their children and the funny things that they do or challenges that they have. I guess I feel that there isn't any "big" thing about my life. In a way we do the same thing a lot of the time. We both work 40 hours a week, come home exhausted, play with Maddie, run errands and spend time together on the weekends. Perhaps, sometimes, we'll plan a trip or something "notable" on a Saturday but not often. Lately, it's been cleaning, shopping, watching football and going out for dinner in the evening. (it's not that I don't like that because I love a relaxing Saturday) Anyone have any suggestions on my two concerns??
For awhile, I have had this feeling like I need to do more with my life (with the free time that I have). We are still paying off our first attempt with IVF (in-vitro Fertilization) that ended with my miscarriage in July. With each paycheck, a certain percent goes to paying that sum off. I think we have a little less than half left to pay back. This is the ultimate goal/priority in our life so when we are done, we'lll start on a 2nd attempt with IVF. But in the meantime, what do I do? I know Heavenly Father has a plan for us/me in remaining childless for this long. I just wish Iknew what exactly He wants me to learn during this time of my life. I've active in my calling as a pianist for our ward choir and I have learned so much but I want to do more. In the past, I've have tossed up a couple ideas: going back to school for my Masters (but that would be less money to contribute to our IVF loan), starting different crafts, and working more with family history. It's the deciding that has me stumped: Each time I try to decide it comes to this: what is the thing or thing that I need to start doing in order for me to grow the way my Heavenly Father wants me to grow? If anyone has any comments, I would love to hear them.
I'd better quit for now, I wrote this at work because these were my thoughts at the moment and work has been so extremely slow.